Im just so depressed. I have 0 motivation to go to school, let alone wake up in the morning. Ive had a combined 5 weeks off since september of 2011, I just dont want to do homework due in 3 days, and I dont want to wake up because that means im one day closer to having to go back to school
I dont want to do homework, I just want to talk to my friendss that ive seen 0 times as a combined group over the last year, and like once since I turned 20
Ive gone to more hockey games this season than I have EVER in my 22 years of existance, and I dont even want to do THAT. Theres only 6 more home heat games left in the season before the playoffs, spread over 3 weekends. And the Vancouver Giants managed to finish LAST in the WHL
In my one week off for summer in 2012, I went to kelowna for a wedding. This was like the highlight of my existance, but a few weeks before that I had to miss my family reuinion because I had to write a final exam, to which I failed both the exam and the course
I just feel like im missing everything, everyone is out living life, with jobs, being happy, and im just here alone missing out, and being stuck forever. I just want time to stop so I can catch up. I dont hate my life, I have hockey, video games, and somewhat of a future, but I just want to stop living, so I can make said video games, write a book or two, work, and have some sort of contact with other people that I for some reason like, but I cant, because I either dont have the ability, they dont want to, I dont have time, or I just dont have the motivation to, because I keep getting my ass handed to me by everything, and I cant unwind
ive taken more time to write this than I have enjoyed my spring break, my one week off before another potential disaster of a summer. Ive become so conditioned to having to look to another bullshit time segment at school that I cant even look forward to enjoying school, or listening to peter hollens, or laugh at steve dangles playoff hopes. Hell, I still have a gifset I have to make, 2 fan fics to write, music to write, a video to storyboard, im learning how to mod KOTOR, I tried building a website community, but that obviously fell apart, and I still have video games I want to make.. I want to do all these things, but I have no motivation to wake up in the morning